Oh my 2020, what did we do to deserve you? I guess plenty, but yikes. 2019 was a year that sucked, but what’s been happening this year eclipsed it to the point I can barely remember why I was happy to see it go. I just knew 2020 was going to be bad, not this bad, but bad.
I wanted to have a party to celebrate my 60th birthday. Not anything fancy, just get the family together for spaghetti and my favorite cake. But that didn’t happen. Instead I spent most of my time leading up to it taking my mom to choose her new assisted living apartment, and I was made very aware that some of my family probably wished I had never been born. One thing lead to another and I ended up living totally alone, sometimes even stranded by a snowed in driveway for a few months. Then it was decided that my mom was coming home and I had to leave. So I’m living in my trailer again. It’s not ideal, but my plan to live in a tent while I cleaned up the trailer didn’t work well. One of the things that was both good and bad about 2019 was I applied for SSDI benefits, and got them. Most people have to take the SSA to court to be approved, but not me. I guess I’m in worse shape than I thought I was. My siblings decided my help wasn’t enough for my mom, and they probably were right. But in retrospect, I really wish I had insisted they had given me more help rather than uproot my mom for six months. In the end she ended up breaking her hip and she’s not really enjoying her home or anything anymore. But at least it didn’t happen on my watch.
2019 saw us lose several family members, and 2020 has taken more. Mom might stick around long enough to see 2021, but no is all that sure she will.
On a brighter note I am living in my house, I still have a bff, and my ex husband insisted I come stay with him and his wife if I get too cold this summer. If I could bring my cat and not just my dog I might. The dog loves it at his house.
Yesterday my bff and I took a day trip all the way to Vergas, and we had a fun day, even though the bar i wanted to eat at was packed with bingo players so we had to leave without the best burgers I’ve ever had. We made up for it by stopping at KFC on the way home. But the scenery was lovely. And it was nice to get away for a few hours. If you can get to Billy’s bar in Vergas I highly recommend it.
I’ve written 472 words about how bad this year has been and not even mentioned Trump and coronavirus. Let’s just say we really messed up letting that guy in the White House. I’m appalled so many people I love still like him. But I hope they get their hopes crushed badly this November. I really do. I’m tired of knowing how dumb people really are. Sorry if that’s offensive but I’m not the only one who is.